Life as I See it!!

We got out of school yesterday for thanksgiving break, and my mom and i went on some errands. The first thing we see is Christmas trees. Why the hell are Christmas trees out yet? its not even  thanksgiving yet! I remember you could watch the thanksgiving day parade on TV and then at the very end they had Santa Claus to use as a transition to say “Go buy Christmas stuff now”. Some people in my neighborhood already had their Christmas lights out before Halloween! What the heck? Did October through December just become the “Holiday Mush” Holiday?? I guess they are so close together, people don’t know what to buy or to prepare for… *sigh*  T_T

Have you ever had that urge to just type something or write something up just because you want to; not because you have to? yeah its one of those days… so much stuff in my mind about my future… Well, i need to take the SAT sometime soon, and then in that i need to take my drivers test (both written and driving), and then i need to plan out which TCC campus I’m going to, depending on what classes i need to take. Ill take my basics at TCC then transfer to probably UT at Arlington and major in Early Childhood education.

Oh! I can’t wait til Friday! Our child guidance class gets to go to this church for “Revive” where we go and hang out with kids with special needs and their brothers and sisters! I’m really excited!

Well, this blog is pretty boring… oh well… i did watch a lot of CTFxC today! I’m so far behind on the vlogs and it’s driving me insane!! (>.<)

This weekend is going by really slowly too! Urg….

Wow,

I cant believe it! im a senior! All my other high school years it felt like when marching band season was over, your year was over and you just had to endure those extra days of doing nothing 8th period…. Freshmen year for 2nd semester Deysha and I tried to do percussion… but after being nervous during a concert and totally messing up, that idea was down the toilet! lol so sophomore year we tried having a “pre-percussion” class for all the guard members (and dj) to learn percussion. Unfortunately, Phil couldn’t come in every time so they stuck us in the auditorium…. then junior year they stuck us in auditorium again til a point, then we finally got our schedules switched!! lol and now its only the end of the 2nd semester and kading is gonna try to change our schedules early… otherwise we would be spending all our time in the guard room…. doing absolutely nothing… SOOO I’m going to sign up to be a library aid… im not really interested in any other classes so i might as well be an aid for the rest of the year! Besides, ill be able to read as many books as i want!!! i love reading!! :D

I say I am a baptist… that i read the bible and i pray to God. I believe He is my savior and blah blah blah… But do i really believe this? Or am i just trying to get my parents off my back about it? I have never really read the bible. It is mainly just skimming… i never paid attention to details. At my new church, North Forth Worth Baptist Church, they taught how to really read the bible. We are working on the book of John. There are so many things i missed about John before i went to this church. I became so interested that when we were unable to go to church this last Sunday, i stayed in my room and studied the book of John. John chapter 1-3. I need a new bible though. My bible that i have is a NIV study bible for teens. and it doesn’t even have red letter! So later I’m going to go to a book store or somewhere to get a really good study bible! :)

Emotional roller-coaster going on in my life now! Too much stress with the pressure of parents and school! I just love those times when I am just alone in my room with only my thoughts. It’s as tho I am one person outside my room. I tend to feel the pressures outside my safe zone, then I come in the safe zone and the emotions pour out… I need to learn to balance these things eventually, otherwise I’m going to be a total wreck after high school…

I got back from mildred’s 99th birthday party! Mildred is a deaf lady at heritage square and she Is the biggest Texas rangers fan u will ever meet! He party was all baseball! We even got to play baseball and she was the MVP!!! We want to take her to a Texas rangers game sometime and maybe meet some of the players!

Had the first day with my stabilizer on…. Don’t u just hate when u get hurt or u change something and u get asked the same questions over and over?? I was about to throw crutches at people!!! Lol “oh what did u do??” “I dislocated my knee cap” “oh my gosh how did u do that??” and then I have to explain over and over the same story that is now drilled in my head… T_T